Jalapeno peppers don't come to Singapore

I made my own bowl of chili today. It was HOT. And it went REALLY well with beer. And I liked the butterscotch after taste.

I am quite hooked on clubbing music all of a sudden: Pitbull's Hotel Room Service, PCD's Hush Hush; and Flo Rida's Jump. Never mind the quality of the music, it's upbeat and very very danceable.

I feel fat. Beer makes me feel fat. I am swearing off beer!!!

I added Hoegarden to my chili today but it seemed too light. So guys, I'm adding Guiness Stout for the chili I'm making this weekend. How about that :D

I'm too sleepy and drowsy to blog in proper sentences. And I know my life is pretty awesome compared to the people I've grown so close to.

Damn it. I need to exercise. Running once a week is PATHETIC. All I do in work everyday is sleep, slack around, eat, sleep, slack around. TOO SEDENTARY. I'm going to gain back all my fats! NEED TO GYM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to do pull ups tomorrow. I better still be able to do 12. Although the rain is an EXCELLENT excuse not to exercise.

WHEEEEEEE! WHOOOZY!

The Case for Modesty, in an Age of Arrogance

The Case for Modesty, in an Age of Arrogance

An excellent essay I read about the pressing need for humility and modesty in society today. I wonder how many people will actually read this and appreciate this as much as I did.

Not The Life

I've been so relaxed and free that this sudden onslaught of obligations is quite jarring and potentially depressing.

I know I've embraced responsibility in church but now I have two separate obligations to fulfill. It's just that in times like these, I have to exercise impartiality and fairness based on who came first and owe the most to.

... Great. A terse reply. A two worded letter loaded with emotion and ambiguity. Those two words didn't really allay my anxieties and concerns as they were intended to. Somehow, I wish that people would understand the magnitude of the opportunity cost, the significance of it, but I feel that when I try to explain, I may be construed as sounding self-righteous and pretentious, or it just gets downplayed. In the end, no one others and I'm walled in on both sides.

When was this supposed to happen? I know I have an obligation to the divine and eternal yet I also have an obligation to my own word. Seriously, what would you have me do? I can't possibly cancel everything at the 11th hour to fulfill one obligation over the other. Either way, it's not going to leave a good feeling. I'm already not making a good impression so I hope you'll give me a chance. I just hope that people don't construe me as being partial to hedonism and leisure over duty and responsibility. I'm quite cognizant of what you guys think so please.

In the end, I'm the only one who understands my own words and not you. Life is suddenly thrown into vacillation and ambivalence. Somehow, I know this will be a lesson on who to serve first and foremost.

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Fine. I'll explain it in plain English because I'm sure no one can figure out what on earth I really mean.

Class party was supposed to be last saturday. But I had church anniversary and my parents wanted me to go so I moved it to this saturday. Just so happens that the schedule for this month came out and I was down for escort duty this saturday. But lo! The opportunity came for me to have my escort last sunday thus freeing up this saturday. But lo! I get an email this week informing me that there's a youth ministry exco meeting this saturday before combined cell (I recently accepted being part of the events committee for the youth ministry exco). And my other events partner also can't make it because she has to tutor her student who has As next week!

Comparing both our reasons for not attending, prima facie, mine seems more superficial because it's all fun and games while she's actually helping someone's future. But at the same time, I promised my class first and jumped through lots of hoops for this saturday. However, in all impartiality, I have to go with the one I promised first and have more people on the line. I know it's also not innocuous to skip this exco meeting which is really important but what choice do I have? Such a conundrum. I know it's not going to be tough and I wasn't expecting any less. But I just hope the relevant people see my motivations and reasoning behind this.

Creole sounds like a type of pasta

At first, it was really intimidating seeing all these real NUS students on the bus. Do they know I'm crashing? Am I over dressed? Do I look too young? Too nervous? Too unfamiliar? Too anxious?

Then began the wait. I see familiar faces. And more faces. I hope no one else sees me. Waiting at the bus stop is too conspicuous! Oh please please, don't let me see those I don't want to! Look busy messaging people on your phone! Where are you? I'm here! And the one I want to see arrives.

Relief. So far so good. This place looks familiar! I've been here before! For some econs rubbish competition last year. Okay. Walking up the steps, pleasant morning thus far, and then BAM! Hi! Fake smiles, fake greetings. Totally reminded of snafu. What luck. But never mind. Over before I know it.

Walking into the lecture theatre. What!? Japanese music video playing on the screen. What lecture is this? English language. Right. Find a seat. Settled in. Somehow all feels so familiar. Yet. It's Gothic. Defamiliarization is taking place. The setting is uncanny. A palimpsest I'm writing over.

But it's not so bad. The accent is funny. She starts talking. SVO, Subject Verb Object. Sounds like EVOO, Extra Virgin Olive Oil. Creole. Pidginization. Wuh?! Goo goo, ga ga. Baba black sheep. This is pointless. And boring. Oh I see her! And her! Oh Leanne just walked in! That guy's from Barker!

Thinking about how unlucky I am. Wondering what is the point of learning all this. Realized staying at home and playing computer games is so much more fun. But learning random stuff like that is interesting. Mmm. Law. Like a mudpie with a generous sprinkling of walnuts and almonds. Slathered in sinfully thick chocolate sauce. Drizzled in marshmallow sauce and topped with whipped cream. So damn thick I think I'd die of cardiac arrest.

Oh look! More videos! Uni lectures are so much more fun than JC lectures! Now some dude is coming up, telling us about English linguistics. Uh what? I can pronounced my "three"s and "tree"s perfectly well thank you. More stuff about phonology and phonetics. Ok. All good to know but I'm sorry. My heart's already in Law. And that big fat paycheck. Tee hee!

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I know I've wasted my time. I've known this a long time ago. But maybe I'm just too bored. Too sentimental. Too hopeful. Too foolish. But I think you have me convinced unequivocally. I'm moving on. It's what you told me to. But I don't regret what I did. I'm proud of my own character and who I am. I can't say the same for you.

Someone To Save Me

Seriously. I'm in half of a mind to study business admin (HAHA! TAKE THAT PEOPLE WHO EXPECT ME TO BE A LAWYER AND EARN 80K A YEAR EXCLUDING 13 MONTH BONUSES) and set up my own gaming retailer and distributor simply because I CAN'T FIND GTAIV: EPISODES FROM LIBERTY CITY ANYWHERE! And all the retailers say that they haven't heard a word from the supplier bla bla bla...

Ahhh! I've got a plan!

Maybe I can try for the biz ad and law double degree! WHOAAAAA.... Let me get my feet wet with Law first before I start pulling off such crazy stunts! HAHAHAHA!

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Tee hee, tickle my fancy.

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I'm starting to sound like a desperate girl.

I Think I May

How much do you even care? Should I even care?

People Book Chalets, We Book Hotel Rooms

Nutshell:

St Regis Hotel, Barker friends; butler at our beck and call; freaking awesome shower with full length mirror to totally check yourself out; tennis, gym, swim, complimentary iced water and fruit poppers; luxury 6 star hotel room and service; lots of guys; flatter stomach than Roy and QX; free coffee and butler shoe polish; intimate kit; dinner; Mr Chia; poker; alcohol, 50 year old cognac; clubbing.

Went to rebel, zirca and lunar for free. Saw all kinds of shit happening and laughed at the inanity of the things people do when intoxicated, saw a lot of sleaze, leopard PREEENTS, witnessed grinding action right next to me and bumped into them a few times, sluts, smoke, ridiculously loud thumping bass-y music, did NOT grind anyone, needed to be high, $7.50 cab fare home (WHOO!).

3 and a half hours of sleep.

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Demography, growth and the environment: Falling fertility | The Economist

Demography, growth and the environment: Falling fertility | The Economist

Horticulture

With a plethora of games being released recently and with my lamentably finite lack of resources, I've decided to prioritize the games I'll be getting. So, you know, just in case ANYBODY, by any far off intergalactic and trans-dimensional chance, needs some ideas for a birthday/Christmas present.

Definitely getting:

1) Modern Warfare 2

2) Assassin's Creed 2

3) GTAIV: Episodes from Liberty City

4) Dragon Age

Would be nice to have:

1) Tekken 6

2) Forza Motorsport 3

3) Brutal Legends

4) Band Hero

5) Borderlands

6) FIFA 10

7) Left 4 Dead 2

Once again, I have to exercise judiciousness and restraint. And not forgetting the end of the year iPod Touch and luxury brand whatever!

Exodus

I COMPLETED DEAD SPACE! FINALLY! I AM A MAN! I'VE GOT BALLS! WHOOO!

Dead Space is the scariest shit ever. I'm not going back to play it ever again! Ok, so I didn't play it at midnight, when everyone else is asleep, with the lights turned off, but hey, at least I finished it to the end! And yes, I think it is highly indicative of my masculinity and courage to actually go through the entire game! HAHAHAH! Right. I kid!

But yay! I got a whole bunch of achievement points from Dead Space alone so that's more to my gamer score! You can see my Xbox achievements in the widget at the sidebar.

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Update -

I think I could spend my whole life playing video games, absorbed in a fantasy world. Why? Because reality sucks. You can't fly, you can't shoot down pedestrians on the street with impunity, you can't shoot laser beams at bad guys, and you can't die. Best of all - you don't have to think about anything else.